last post for a while

(initially a note but pretty much immediately decided to also post here. iM dElEtiNg thE ApP lmao -- won't be gone, just visiting from desktop occasionally. far too busy to be spending time on the android version)

in case it wasn't clear -- not virtue signaling, and in no way can my issues or daily engaged struggle compare to those at the heart of the issues i care about; but certainly sick and growing weary of attacks of a certain personal character:

MY boots are on the damn ground. They're black Timberlands, size 10, which is almost two full sizes too big for me. I stuff socks in the toes so my feet don't bounce around.

They're the best and only pair I own. A friend from high school gave them to me when he saw my sneakers falling apart. I have worn them daily since.

Stop telling me to touch grass; it's usually where I sleep. Stop calling me a larper; it's not roleplay when you're literally the thing. Not pretending to be the thing; ARE the thing, and always was. Idk why I put some dumb bullshit in my bio before: should have been “homeless communist” because that's literally all I am. There is nothing more to Bruce D. Crockett.

I know how to form a party because I've done it before, and failed. And I'll keep doing it and failing until I get it right.

Fun little question. Do you know how to raise an army? Have you studied it? I might not be the most familiar with the damn MCM formula, but how straight is YOUR shot, comrade? How many hours on range so far this year??

I know how to subvert systems of power because I've always needed to know that in order to survive. Call it hyperbole (yep, white, European American, etc, and also generationally broke, indebted, and afflicted in an entirely unrelated way); you don't fucking know me! unless you do, hi. whiteness (even as an admittable concept or acceptable collective, which are not given) is a horrific scourge on the rest of humanity, yes! please stop taking it out on real ass people who are trying, it's immature and betrays some true weakness.

IF there were really clandestine structures of any meaningful capacity forming in the US…. do you really think we'd be discussing it openly on Substack? ffs! Grow uppppp

MY sacrifices have made a significant difference, and have also held me back from my ‘peers’ to a huge degree. I didn't finish college. I struggle to hold a job because I start problems (like unions lol). And I have been TARGETED, in real life, by real people and groups, in a way that causes me to be paranoid, and live most of my days in hiding. But my organizations, that I started with no prompt and little initial help, have fed and continue to feed people. I can take pride in that!

tbh I am not the best writer. My initial articles, especially ….. No good ! I get it ! But again, honestly, that's why I dedicate 98% of my energy and time to real, material labor, that actually DOES SOMETHING, and about 0.5% of it to pontificating on this godforsaken app. thanks as always for reading.

arm yourselves 😭 we are running out of time ! For millions it is too late already